NASHVILLE, Tenn. (AP) — The 10th season of American Idol has kicked off and some people’s lives will be changed forever.

Former Idol finalist Mandisa (man-DEE’-sah) Hundley knows the feeling. The two-time Grammy nominee finished in the top 10 the year Taylor Hicks won and is now planning to release her third gospel album on April 5, What If We Were Real.

But, as it turns out, her biggest life change came after the show. She embarked on an emotional weight-loss journey two years ago and has since shed 90 pounds.

Mandisa’s struggles fueled her new music.

“Where I was at the beginning of this album and where I ended up are two very different places,” she told The Associated Press in an e-mail. “It’s been a process. I will always struggle with my weight. It’s the thorn in my flesh.”

Standing on a scale one morning and seeing a disappointing number prompted Mandisa to finally get real with herself and her fans.

“I had gained weight and was so frustrated at that moment that I said so on Twitter,” she said.

She tweeted: “I’m fed-up and over it.”

“I was feeling embarrassed and ashamed. I realized that I had only talked about how great things were. I never let people in when they were not. It was then that I decided I’d talk about the bad things too,” she said.

The result is what Mandisa calls her most honest record to date.

She began recording “in a very dark place.” The title track and the song Just Cry came out of those early sessions. However, by the end of the process, she said, she was back to a place of peace and joy with the song Lifeline, about unwavering trust in God, the last track she recorded.

Mandisa is on her way to losing 100 pounds but said she doesn’t have a goal weight.

“My only goal is to be healthy physically, spiritually, and emotionally. That is a lifelong journey,” she said.